Miss Independent

I want to grow old with you

2009-12-01T06:37:00.000-08:00

I want to grow old with you.
The one I know so well.
The one who know's me better than anyone.
I want to walk down the aisles in walmart with you
(as we grow old)
I want to watch tv with you
(as we grow old)
I want to race you down the aisles in groceree stores on electric scooter's
(as we grow old)
I want to plant things in a Garden with you
(as we grow old)
I want you to pray with me before I would go in for surgery
(as we grow old)
I want to cuddle up with you on a recliner
(as we grow old)
I want to go to bingo meets with you
(as we grow old)
I want you to hold me tight when i'm not feeling well
(as we grow old)
I want you to softly whisper "I love you" while we're dancing
(as we grow old)
I want to make you dinner when I can't
(as we grow old)
I want us to hold hands just because we can
(as we grow old)
I want you tell me i'm beautiful when I look like a mess
(as we grow old)
I want you to kiss my forehead when my doctor tells me how long I have to live
(as we grow old)
I want you to tell me you'll love me forever
(as we grow old)
I want us to die together so we can see eachother in heaven.
If I could grow old with anyone, it would be with you.

-Miss Independant

(ohh, she fell in love)

Let's Runaway

2009-11-02T07:45:00.000-08:00

Runaway.

I want to runaway from it all-

But how? with whom? where to?

Being critizied for each thing I do.

He's there.

He whispers "I love you."

When I feel as if no one does.

He says "I'm here."

When it seems like no one is.

He asks "What's wrong?"

When I could have the biggest smile on my face.

(He knows me better than anyone.)

He smiles "You're Beautiful."

When I'm having a bad hair day.

He states "I'm praying for you."

When I'm having a bad week.

He wishes "I wish I could be there."

When i'm crying to him on the phone.

He grins "You're my best friend."

When I feel as if I have no one to talk to.

He laughs "May I have this dance?"

When it's pouring down raining

He's sad "You're perfect."

When I state a flaw of my own.

He's confident "You're so smart."

When I give him advice.

He frowns "I miss you."

When I mention the distance between us.

He's sincere "Those other girls don't even come close to you."

When I feel worthless.

78.20 miles is too far away.

I miss him.

Let's runaway.

Betcha never thought you'd see a post like that on here

-Miss Independant

♫ And then the time we woke up to find that summer gone ♪

2009-10-28T06:41:00.000-07:00

This past summer went amazing. I met some new people- and deepended friendships with others.

It's now in the midst of fall and soon the holiday's will be starting. I can't wait.

My page needs a new look.

-Miss Independent

new

2009-05-25T20:46:00.000-07:00

Alright, I've realized that I really need an update!
It's been what?...7 months.
wow!
Soooo---I don't know where to start really.
Since my last blog post,
I have gotten my wisdom teeth out, played on a winning basketball team, got my driver's permit, and decided to do CYIA again this summer. :)

I feel so blessed that God is allowing me to do so.
I can't wait!! <3

-Miss Independent

Hero

2008-09-04T11:25:00.000-07:00

“A hero is an ordinary individual who finds the strength to persevere and endure in spite of overwhelming obstacles.”

"A hero is one who knows how to hang on one minute longer."

My hero is Nicholas Jerry Jonas.

He has type 1 diabetes.
He is helping many people, he's helping them hear about a better hope.
He doesn't make it direct, but i know what he means.

"So i'll wait til kingdom comes, all the highs and lows are gone, a little bit longer and i'll be fine."

He is my hero in more ways than one;;

I love the jonas brothers lyrics as well; all three of those jersey boys are amazing<3

Peace&Love

-Miss Independent

Training/Summer/School/Jonas

2008-08-27T06:33:00.000-07:00

WOW!

okay so first off, sorry for not writing as soon as training school was over but i have been EXTREMELY busy.

Training was just absolutly breath-taking. Just seeing God's work rocked!

i met so many amazing people there who i will never forget<3

along with quotes such as;

"Goodbye, Poor little tick, let's call him James!"

"Smile, Jesus loves you!"

"It's the sin shirt!"

those are just a few, im trying to think, but i currently can't.

The last day of training was just so hard saying goodbye to everyone there. there was about 78 students there learning how to teach children.

Then the summer, WOW. i have never loved kids more.

i am so glad that God used me this summer to teach them.

School starts the 2nd of Sept. for me.

I'm actually excited for it, especially taking my French class. i hope it will be great!

quick quote i want to type quickly.

it reminds me of the jonas brothers;

"The best part is being a true fan. The worst part? Fake fans always win."

I don't know, i just liked that quote.

but yeah, thats just a quick update, i hope my readers did not abandon me on my absense.

haha!

so yeah, im back and will try to write more often. =]

-Miss Independent.

Training.

2008-06-13T04:24:00.000-07:00

Today i leave for training for CEF.

a whole 8 days.

yes, i know..thats a lot for me.

for those of you who read my blog i wanted to say goodbye to you and ill miss you

-cough- maike and ashley-

I have VBS..then straight from vbs i go to training.

please pray that this week goes well.

i return 6/21/08

so i'll talk to ya'll when i get back.

-Miss Independent.

...

2008-06-06T21:38:00.001-07:00

Behind every untrusting girl is a boy who made her that way.

.....

-Miss Independent.

Nick, Qualifications, & School.

2008-06-03T09:26:00.000-07:00

Sometime's it scares me that i feel like i was meant to be with him;

Yeah, i know. I'm pathetic right?

I don't even know if it's even possible to love someone you don't know.

Then i continuously ask myself do i love him or the idea of him.

I have no idea how he acts in real life.

He seems like the way he acts on stage is the same as real life.

The way he talks about God, are those really his views?

I mean i don't doubt they are.

i'm pretty sure they are.

or at least i hope they are.

Is it bad that every guy i talk to i compare to Nicholas Jerry Jonas?

I think that he really is doing a good job though, i mean being an inspiration to many around him. His diabetes doesn't stop him.

Change for the children foundation, he's created at such a young age.

I think he's a great person.

Even if i don't know the real him.

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I'm still working on that list of requirements for the perfect guy.

Right now i have 129 qualifications.

i hope to have more and more as the summer goes on.

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Tomorrow is my last day of classes for school.

i have Finals to finish, as well as getting the rest of my CEF stuff handed in.

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This summer i will basically have two jobs.

CEF and Babysitting.

i've been babysitting lately, and from that money i now have a Cell phone.

-Grins-

it's pretty sweet.

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I shall end my blog with saying;

"have a great last week of school!" to everyone who has not finished yet.

-Miss Independent.

David, Stress and Dating.

2008-05-25T15:57:00.001-07:00

Sooooo, David Archuleta did not win American Idol.

oh well.

he's still amazing, its so funny, cuz he's so modest and humble about everything it makes me laugh. hahaha!

Okay, this weekend has been so stressful. i think i'll actually be okay with being away for two weeks. i mean i think i'll like the quiet, i mean i know they say the training i have to go through is more like boot camp, and most everyone who goes ends up crying by the end of the week because it's so stressful trying to learn your lessons and getting like 5 hours of sleep per night, but i don't care..i'd rather cry over somthing like that than things that are stressful at home. and i know God will help me through it..

Oh, and i'm getting a cell phone sometime this coming week. i will miss my friends terribly, it says to leave cell phones at home, but the director said i could bring one along to call my parents..but scary thing is, i'd rather not call them..or some of my so called "friends." i'd rather call my true friends..the friends who get me through life..those are my real friends. and i know it, i just can't admit it.

Pray for me, pray that God gives me strength to get through this all.

Although on the bright side, at least i have those true friends, who won't let me down.

..i feel that drama is ahead.

I hate drama, why do people have to cause so much?

I have so many girls i teach, so many who are worried about boys, and getting dates.

Why get so worried about it, i mean you don't need a boyfriend, life is complicated enough, find out who you are, get through your teen years, travel, have fun, live it up..then date. It would be so much eaiser.

Yeah i know, who am i? a 15 year old writing this, mmm yeah..i'm young but i have experience in that area.

Where do the children and teens get all this stuff? the tv, radio, school, everywhere saying "it's okay to date..You're only young once"

yeah, but when you date at a young age..you don't know about life..you're so blinded by everything and you haven't even found out who you are yet.

and now you're asking, "well you're only 15, why are you telling other people this??"

Believe me, i'm going to follow this myself..boys cause too much on an already busy life.

School, housework, jobs, friends, family, God, finding yourself, having fun, drama. and so much more.

Get all those things down..then when you're ready. Date.

Boys cause way too much drama, and heartache. Believe me, you don't want heartbreak.

it will follow you for the rest of your life, for the younger ones who are reading this.

Joshua Harris' book 'i kissed dating goodbye' is my favorite book, it has been for the past few years. and each time i read it, i find somthing more.

"When God says no to somthing, it's because he's saying yes to somthing better" -Joshua Harris

Think about it.

Okay, now i'm done rambling on now and letting my feelings out.

but i just thought i would share. thanks for reading, and also thanks for those who are praying for me!

-Miss Independent.

life.and AI

2008-05-16T21:59:00.001-07:00

I feel like the most..different 15 year old ever.

i really want to mission work this summer, i'm scared though.

i am afraid from being away from home, yeah i know right. me?

wanting to stay at home.

when i could be miles away from life and my family.

yeah, that's not me.

i don't know i guess i'm just scared.

.....

Do you know what it's like to feel alone?

No one truly understands me.

okay well there is one person.

but she is over 5,000 miles away.

i miss her so dearly, i haven't talked to her in three days.

.....

You know what bugs me...People..people just really bug me.

[no offense to those of you reading this]

okay, so then maybe not People..

but just..moronic people who have no lives..like girls who cause drama.

those are the people who just really bug me.

Oh how i wish i just could--oh i have no idea what i'm trying to say here..or even if i'm trying to make a point.

it's late and i'm nervous cuz i have another thing for CEF tomorrow.

i don't feel like going, cuz honestly..my stomach isn't feeling the greatest.

ohh well i guess i'll just have to learn to go on.

well anyways, since i really do not have any point in this blog..i will end it with.

American idol, Tuesday night.

Who are you voting for?

pshhh, you better be voting for David Archuleta.

VOTE FOR THE DOLPHIN KISSING SINGER.

ha..ha! i am so lame.

ohhh i love that kid, even though he is two years older than me.

haha!

anyways..yeah.

-Miss Independent.

Just a quick update.

2008-05-04T14:29:00.000-07:00

Surgery went well.
there was a complication.
when the surgeon went to take the probe out.
he hit an artery.
sooo. he had to stich that up and i had to stay overnight in the hospital.
I currently have for holes on my stomach.
i'm just glad that everything worked out.
it could have been worse.
i'm still not fully back to myself yet.
i'll post sometime when i'm up to it.
just thought i'd update you on that.

-Miss Independent.

Surgery

2008-04-25T12:21:00.001-07:00

I have surgery scheduled for tuesday. i have to get my gall-bladder out. yes i know..i'm only 15 and i hafta get it out. Pray for me! pray that all goes well.
i know i have to be fearless, cuz when you're fearless nothing is IMPOSSIBLE.
so i need to keep my head up.
i think my mom is more worried than i am.
although i am scared. but i got to keep in mind.
there are children who go to hospitals everyday, children who are dying and younger than me. so i am very blessed!

Urgg

2008-04-19T20:40:00.001-07:00

Boys, especially one..Okay..He is the most cocky, big headed, intolarable, uneducated, simple, ignorant, annoying, inconsiderate boy i have ever met in my ENTIRE life..Why in the heck do boys act like that!?
..Jerk.

anyways..Life's been good. just trying to keep up with things is all.

-Miss independent.

friends

2008-04-15T18:34:00.000-07:00

I think we'll be okay. I told her everything that was wrong. She actually listened <3
and i'm glad =]

i hope her and i can be as close as we used to be.

and i feel she understands, i think she helped me a lot, Thanks =] You know who you are. <3
Bff's<3

-Miss Independent

...

2008-04-13T18:47:00.001-07:00

I just need some time to think.

breath.

Think.

stop.

it seems like i'm looking for somthing that can't be found.

i hate to cut off her and i's friendship, but i think its best.

i don't want to.

but i need to.

-Miss Independent.

Results, brattyness..and me..oh wait..same thing.

2008-04-04T12:20:00.000-07:00

So i...GOT THE JOB.

wooohooo!

i'm really excited, but nervous at the same time.

I also went to the doctors. im taking med. to see if its my acid reflux, if it doesnot work in two weeks i go back to get an ultra sound of my galbladder, i may have to get it removed. im really scared.

i felt as if i was acting like a brat yesterday, b/c we had pssa's TWO HOURS away and afterwords we were supposed to go skating.

mom HAD to tell gram and pap to come alll the way to where we were.so they did.and i was being a brat and complained that i wanted to go skating.so we go all the way on an hour trip to skating..mom said she wasn't paying an hour for skating. but we could go in and visit.she thinks i just wanted to go to see a boy.i wanted to go to SKATE.so we get there. i was being more of a brat and not going in PROVING to her that i was not there for a boy. so THEN we take another hour trip to my aunt and uncles to babysit while they went out to eat for the first time in a while. [my aunt has lukemia]and we watched enchanted with the kids, my second time watching it.then we took ANOTHER hour trip home.we did not get home until 11;30pm..talk about busy day...phew..I'm just so glad its friday though...

I wish it were saturday though..idk why.

oh well. i want to watch anne of green gables again..idk if its gunna happen. but i'll try to con my little brother into watching it with me.

but now i must go

tata!!

-Miss independent.

Future jobs & Science

2008-03-24T19:07:00.000-07:00

I'm waiting for my results for my [Lord willing] summer job. It's suppose to be looking good with me getting hired. and then i will be a CEF summer missionary. Wow, sounds scary doesn't it? Me, teaching...KIDS!

ahhh! yes i know. hahaha!

I'm actually feeling pretty confident with everything..other than one thing. I have to make a speech in front of the church, Asking for support. I'm so scared. I can sing or act in front of the church..or even dance..or even make a regular speech. but making a speech basically saying 'I need money, Support me'

It feels wrong to me in some ways.

Although i must keep in mind what someone told me today. I'm not asking for money for me, i'm asking for support as i do the Lord's plan. i need to remember that. It's not for me. It's for God using me in a positive way to teach children.

I am excited though, i feel God is calling me to do this. Not for a full time career when i'm older but just for now.

I think it would be amazing to get into zoology or be a children's Doctor at a Children's hospital. i'm currently trying to decide between those two..oh well i still have 3 or 4 years to think about all that yet.

I don't know if you've noticed or not..but i'm secretly a science nerd. I love learning anything that i don't already know about science. It fascinates me.

If i could choose any animals to study i would probably choose

Dolphins or monkey's. I don't know..anything really but defiantly put those two animals on my list.

The amazing thing about monkey's though is, there are so many different species in the world.

I mean over 200!!! that's a lot.

-Miss Independent

Fear

2008-03-23T20:38:00.000-07:00

Why am i so afraid to let a boy in my life?

why?

Maybe because i'm afraid of the heartbreak.

I hate these feelings, i don't want any feel anything for him.

Why do i?

I shouldn't.

He's sweet, polite, he knows how to make me laugh, and most importantly he knows God.

I also thought another boy did. Although i only knew that boy for nearly 3 months.

I've known this boy for 12 years.

I know him.

i don't want to fall in love.

i can't.

i won't.

What if i'm trying, don't want to..but slowly are.

What if i don't want to admit it.

What if he's the only one who can brighten my bad day?

Why does his laugh make me crack up?

Why can't i breath when i think about him?

Why is he so nice, considerate, polite, and smiley to me?

why Does that sound so horrible to me?

It Shouldn't.

It should sound amazing.

but i Can't fall in love.

I won't. I'm not. Case Closed.

-Miss Independent

Jerks, Braces, and Friends

2008-03-22T17:56:00.000-07:00

Why do guys have to be so dumb? haha, yeah i know it seems as if i start out every blog entry like that.

ohh well, i guess i should say no offense to all the guy bloggers out there! so, SORRY!

but i will continue my thoughts, forgive me.

I mean there's this guy at church he thinks he's all that and a slice of pie, and i have to shake his hand tomorrow because him and his family are greeters. ughh! it will take all i can not to just punch him in the face! Last time i saw him i kicked him, but believe me..he deserved it!

i know i won't be able to shake his hand without rolling my eyes.

why do boys have to show off?

do they realize it makes them look like jerks?!

to all those guys out there..again..sorry..and take that advice.

it makes you look like Jerks!
Again, just expressing my opinions.

Tomorrow is Easter i am excited, but not sure what i'm going to wear yet. I've been looking through my closet all night. Hmm not sure what i'm going to wear.

Oh Great! Lips of an angel is on the radio. Wow, how many memories this song brings back. there for a while i refused to listen to it. Now i don't really care.

Wanna know why?

Yeah, i'm not telling you because i was dumb and naive back then.

yeah yeah yeah, iknow i'm only fourteen, but i've had my experiences.

Next month is my birthday. Whhoooo!

April 16Th, i'm also getting my braces off that day.

Double Whoooo!

Yesterday Chas was here all day, her and i did each others hair. it was really fun!

She's like the little sister i've never had.

so yeah =]

Okay well i best be going. I'll post sometime..that's not now.

haha!

-Miss Independent

JonasBoys

2008-03-10T11:02:00.000-07:00

Wanted;;
Has anyone seen these boys lately?

nope, me either.

well what about these boys?

I wish i have.

Remember those days?

Here's some secrets i secretly agree on.

shh!

[How true is ^that?]

=[

Yep. That's basically how i feel.

i mean i love those boys with all my heart. but i think they need to slow things down a bit, take a nice long break.

Breathe.

idunno i'm just kinda ehhh. about them right now.

i hope their fame dies back down to how it was in 2005-06.

i miss those days, maybe i'm just selfish.
but yeah i'm gunna go now, since i'm done sharing those feelings. =]

-Miss Independent.

Miss independent.

2008-03-05T10:26:00.000-08:00

Okay so we got 3rd place in the Championship, i'm going to miss basketball. The fun of beating up guys! haha just kidding. but i shall miss it.

I did prove a point though, i was trying to be the nicest i could be to my friend's ex boyfriend by telling him congrats on coming in first, he totally ignored it...Jerk!

Why do guys have to act like that?

One mystery i'll never solve.

....

It reminds me of Cells, well the cell wall. It protects and supports the cell, Plants have a cell wall. Animals do not.

Men are like Animals! They seem to think they do not need supported or protected!

okay..wait i think i have that mixed up, BOYS are like animals.

There are few REAL MEN in the world!

My point made.

My brother called me independent last night, do you find that strange?

In a way i'll take it as a compliment, i'd rather play hard to get i suppose.

Tonight i have awana, so i should probably go.

Bye!

-Miss Independent

2/29

2008-02-29T16:49:00.000-08:00

Do you ever get that feeling when you're excited but so nervous at the same time?

Right now that's me.

My Basketball tournament is tomorrow.

I'm so extremely..oh what's the right word...Ecstatic! Thats it.

I feel ecstatic.

I feel as if we could win, our coach said we have to win four games [out of seven] and the championship is ours.

i guess my heart it getting pumped more from listening to 'music is my boyfriend' for about the third time tonight.

Now i'm moved on and listening to shadow by Demi Lovato.

Schoolwork, multi-tasking with schoolwork and my blog. Ya know it's funny i actually LIKE being smart. i used to think it was a bad thing. But being smart has it's advantages think about it all the great women in History were smart. Rosa parks. she could basically be anyone's hero. Deborah Sampson also comes to my mind.

"I knew someone had to take the first step and I made up my mind not to move."

-Rosa Parks

Have you ever wondered how people say love is Fearless. i don't know why. It seems as if it would be a crime in today's society if i were to say 'i don't need a boyfriend, Boys cause too much drama' because. well they do. =]

I am happy being single.

Well ta ta for now. i must finish my Science homework.

i'll get back to you about the game.

Bye!

-Amanda<3

First blog.

2008-02-25T10:26:00.000-08:00

Welcome to my blog.

through the days you will see the..interesting things of an average teenage girl's life [me]

God is my life, Jesus Christ has truly become my best friend.

This summer i am planning on being a summer missionary for CEF.

Someday i hope to change the world.

ilovethejonasbrothers

Music, yep that's my boyfriend<3

Orange is my color..i have to wear somthing orange to complete any outfits. It completes my 'look' haha!

I love word graphics, emo images. so a lot of times i will have a picture to go along with my day.

i hope you enjoy my Blog! =]

-Manda<3