Future jobs & Science

I'm waiting for my results for my [Lord willing] summer job. It's suppose to be looking good with me getting hired. and then i will be a CEF summer missionary. Wow, sounds scary doesn't it? Me, teaching...KIDS!

ahhh! yes i know. hahaha!

I'm actually feeling pretty confident with everything..other than one thing. I have to make a speech in front of the church, Asking for support. I'm so scared. I can sing or act in front of the church..or even dance..or even make a regular speech. but making a speech basically saying 'I need money, Support me'

It feels wrong to me in some ways.

Although i must keep in mind what someone told me today. I'm not asking for money for me, i'm asking for support as i do the Lord's plan. i need to remember that. It's not for me. It's for God using me in a positive way to teach children.

I am excited though, i feel God is calling me to do this. Not for a full time career when i'm older but just for now.

I think it would be amazing to get into zoology or be a children's Doctor at a Children's hospital. i'm currently trying to decide between those two..oh well i still have 3 or 4 years to think about all that yet.

I don't know if you've noticed or not..but i'm secretly a science nerd. I love learning anything that i don't already know about science. It fascinates me.

If i could choose any animals to study i would probably choose

Dolphins or monkey's. I don't know..anything really but defiantly put those two animals on my list.

The amazing thing about monkey's though is, there are so many different species in the world.

I mean over 200!!! that's a lot.

-Miss Independent

Fear

Why am i so afraid to let a boy in my life?

why?

Maybe because i'm afraid of the heartbreak.

I hate these feelings, i don't want any feel anything for him.

Why do i?

I shouldn't.

He's sweet, polite, he knows how to make me laugh, and most importantly he knows God.

I also thought another boy did. Although i only knew that boy for nearly 3 months.

I've known this boy for 12 years.

I know him.

i don't want to fall in love.

i can't.

i won't.

What if i'm trying, don't want to..but slowly are.

What if i don't want to admit it.

What if he's the only one who can brighten my bad day?

Why does his laugh make me crack up?

Why can't i breath when i think about him?

Why is he so nice, considerate, polite, and smiley to me?

why Does that sound so horrible to me?

It Shouldn't.

It should sound amazing.

but i Can't fall in love.

I won't. I'm not. Case Closed.

-Miss Independent

Jerks, Braces, and Friends

Why do guys have to be so dumb? haha, yeah i know it seems as if i start out every blog entry like that.

ohh well, i guess i should say no offense to all the guy bloggers out there! so, SORRY!

but i will continue my thoughts, forgive me.

I mean there's this guy at church he thinks he's all that and a slice of pie, and i have to shake his hand tomorrow because him and his family are greeters. ughh! it will take all i can not to just punch him in the face! Last time i saw him i kicked him, but believe me..he deserved it!

i know i won't be able to shake his hand without rolling my eyes.

why do boys have to show off?

do they realize it makes them look like jerks?!

to all those guys out there..again..sorry..and take that advice.

it makes you look like Jerks!
Again, just expressing my opinions.

=]

Tomorrow is Easter i am excited, but not sure what i'm going to wear yet. I've been looking through my closet all night. Hmm not sure what i'm going to wear.

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Oh Great! Lips of an angel is on the radio. Wow, how many memories this song brings back. there for a while i refused to listen to it. Now i don't really care.

Wanna know why?

Yeah, i'm not telling you because i was dumb and naive back then.

yeah yeah yeah, iknow i'm only fourteen, but i've had my experiences.

Next month is my birthday. Whhoooo!

April 16Th, i'm also getting my braces off that day.

Double Whoooo!

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Yesterday Chas was here all day, her and i did each others hair. it was really fun!

She's like the little sister i've never had.

so yeah =]

Okay well i best be going. I'll post sometime..that's not now.

haha!

-Miss Independent

JonasBoys

Wanted;;
Has anyone seen these boys lately?

nope, me either.

well what about these boys?

I wish i have.

Remember those days?

Here's some secrets i secretly agree on.

shh!

[How true is ^that?]

=[

Yep. That's basically how i feel.

i mean i love those boys with all my heart. but i think they need to slow things down a bit, take a nice long break.

Breathe.

idunno i'm just kinda ehhh. about them right now.

i hope their fame dies back down to how it was in 2005-06.

i miss those days, maybe i'm just selfish.
but yeah i'm gunna go now, since i'm done sharing those feelings. =]

-Miss Independent.

Miss independent.

Okay so we got 3rd place in the Championship, i'm going to miss basketball. The fun of beating up guys! haha just kidding. but i shall miss it.

I did prove a point though, i was trying to be the nicest i could be to my friend's ex boyfriend by telling him congrats on coming in first, he totally ignored it...Jerk!

Why do guys have to act like that?

One mystery i'll never solve.

....

It reminds me of Cells, well the cell wall. It protects and supports the cell, Plants have a cell wall. Animals do not.

Men are like Animals! They seem to think they do not need supported or protected!

okay..wait i think i have that mixed up, BOYS are like animals.

There are few REAL MEN in the world!

=]

My point made.

My brother called me independent last night, do you find that strange?

In a way i'll take it as a compliment, i'd rather play hard to get i suppose.

Tonight i have awana, so i should probably go.

Bye!

-Miss Independent